How Would you Feel

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So it's been a long time since I last posted but today I thought I would post a topic that has been on my mind for about 2 days. So here goes. Yesterday I found out from social media that a person that has been kind of a family enemy to me for years has died and has been dead for a little over a year. And now after finding that out I'm like....hmmmm how am I suppose to feel about it? Am I suppose to jump for joy? No not really. That's not really how I feel...am I suppose to laugh? No not really thats not how I feel.....am I suppose to feel sorry for that person hell nah I don't feel that either because that person never felt sorry for me....so how am I suppose to feel? 


Let me give u a little inside back story about myself and this person. This person is the child of the spouse that my parent married. 

And this person is not my parent's child. But yet every since age 16 this person has been doing nothing but trying their best to push the real kids out of the way and be seen as 
The child of my blood parent which was not true. I'm talking about had the entire family Turn their back against me and accepted. 

This person instead and everything. I'm talking about had the whole family bowing down but when i...THE REAL KID showed up I got all types of ugly faces and stares and blown off and called crazy and this and that. 

Treated me as if I don't mean anything and I don't matter at all whatsoever. So when my parent died. This person took over the funeral I had planed for my parent and made it into what this person wanted. Just straight over rode my ass as if I didn't mean absolutely shit. 

Buried my parent in some slum cemetary 
Took the money and did whatever this person wanted to do. Never even gave my parent a head stone to mark the grave or anything. 

Just some little flag when the name written on it in a black marker, drown in the ground and buried and kept it moving. I remember I was so upset because not one living soul tried to stand up for me and stop this person. Not even one. I blown off. And thats not all....this same person stole 65k of my parent and the spouses money that they had from selling their home that they bought together. This person took 65k and blew everu single dime.......and yet agin nobody held this person accountable for not one single thing..but oh my god i remember getting dam near slaughtered for not becoming some big time nurse working at the hospital. I remember getting slaughtered dam near for not going to their so call church on sunday mornings....i remember getting dam near slaughtered for for almost every choice i made......So I took off. Left...moved on with my life. And chose to live my life my way. And never looked back. 

Now yesterday I finds this out. And I'm like wow. So the one who was made to look like the hero is now in the cemetary huh. 

Hmmmm...how am I suppose to feel about that I wonder?

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